Taking A Break

For the past few weeks I've been exhausting myself - the battle to keep myself together and not consume every pill in the house in an effort to never wake up takes most of my brain power every day. I have tried to talk to people, like "they" say, but the people I've chosen apparently don't understand and change the subject. I feel like I'm lost in a black hole of worthlessness. I have to get out, and to do that I need to be away from the things that set my brain off. I've already shut my phone off. I'll be limiting my internet to deleting email ads and checking the weather - chances are I won't be reading the blogs I subscribe to. I've been trying to be outside and exercising to recharge my brain. I'll be keeping that up. I can't keep living like this or I will die. And no, I'm not fishing for comments or sympathy. I just wanted you to know why I'm going to be gone for a while. Thank you for your understanding.